6 Ways I Woke Up After Hitting Rock Bottom In My 20s

At 22 years old, I thought I had it all.

I was a recent college graduate, who not only financed her entire college education, but also received honors. I had two job offers before I even had the chance to walk on stage and get my diploma.

I had a healthy relationship, a loving and supportive family, and great friends cheering me on.

Some would think my life was “perfect.”

But when I had a nervous breakdown a month after starting my full-time job, everything changed.

I was hospitalized for my intense headaches and lack of appetite. My anxiety had kept me stuck at home for two weeks. I couldn’t sleep; I couldn’t eat, and I ultimately felt like I had lost sight of myself and who I was. It was the scariest time of my life. I had lost all control.

I was always the type of woman who thought she would have her life figured out post-graduation. I dreamed about having a career mapped out and my bank account thriving as I was climbing up the ladder to success. So, when I realized I was in a job that just wasn’t for me, no matter how stable it was, I knew I had to quit.

In life, sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can reach your destiny.

It was Marilyn Monroe who said,

“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

My breakdown revealed to me the most important things about life and myself.

1. Do what you love.

As much as some people might try to tell you otherwise, money isn’t everything. If you’re unhappy and struggling to get through the day, no amount of money will actually pay off.

You have to be true to yourself, to your head, and to your heart. If you’re unhappy with where you are in life, no matter what people may say, you have to make a change and do what is best for you, no one else. One month into my career, I decided it just wasn’t for me. People think I’m crazy, but I think other people are crazy for staying at jobs that don’t suit them.

2. It’s okay to not be okay.

I don’t know what my next move is now, and I’m slowly starting to realize that not having your sh*t together in your early 20s is okay. Even though I have spent most of my adolescence dreaming of the day I’d graduate and walk into a job, it’s okay not to have it all figured out right now .

Things may seem horrible, and you may feel like a bit of a failure. But if you’re making strides to figure out what you want out of life, you’re doing better than you think.

3. You can’t control everything.

I’m a control freak. Maybe it’s because I have anxiety, or maybe it’s because the unknown scares the sh*t out of me, but I always want to know what my next move is so I can prepare.

As a college student, it was easy for me to have control of my life by mapping out my class schedule around my work schedule, finding time to have a night out to de-stress, and setting aside time to write my papers. But, as an adult in the real world, having control is almost impossible. With the abundance of my qualified peers trying to enter the workforce, finding a full-time job is harder than ever.

4. Patience is everything.

My father once told me, “Life is a journey, not a sprint.”

I’m still trying to embody those words of wisdom, but I haven’t quite got it down just yet. I’m always trying to figure out my next move, and when I don’t hear back from a company or prospective employer right away, I usually freak out.

Having patience is the only way to keep yourself together. Not everyone in the world is as fast-paced and plugged in as us millennials.

5. Stop thinking everyone else has it together.

Social media always glorifies people’s good times and good days. When you’re going through a lot, seeing everyone else appearing to have their sh*t together makes you feel worse for not having your life figured out.

But, remember that social media is just a microscopic piece of people’s lives; it’s what they want the world to see. When you’re feeling down, social media is the last thing that’s going to help. Instead of focusing on their lives, focus on your own and how to get back to where you want to be. The more energy you put to bettering yourself, the further you’ll go in life.

6. Don’t rush through life.

Sometimes, I have to stop and remember I’m only 22. No matter how mature I think I am, or how much crap I’ve been through in life, I am still young. These are the “selfish” years, the ones in which you’re supposed to be constantly laughing with a drink in your hand and living carefree.

I don’t have kids or a mortgage, and I’m free to be exactly who I am, with no remorse or apologies. It’s about time we embrace these days, before they’re long gone.

Life comes at you fast, and most of the time, we’re more focused on trying to figure out the next step, before we ever get a chance to enjoy it in real-time. It’s healthy to plan ahead and want to have it all figured out, but often times, it’s unrealistic. So just breathe, enjoy the moment, and take hold of the uncertainty. You will find your way, I promise.

Featured image via Sania Claus Demina

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