I have never been one to talk about religion.
I never truly believed in anything if I am being completely honest. I did believe that everything happens for a reason, yes. But in something bigger than the eyes can see and that mankind can accomplish, no, never. There were too many unanswered questions for me to fully believe. I always thought everything I have done in my life was because I have done it, and in a sense that is true because I have done it but in another way, it wasn’t all just me, I had a little guidance along the way.
I would occasionally go to church with my family, every Christmas, and Easter for example but when I made the decision to move across the country I thought maybe going to church would be a great way to meet new people. People that I would be able to have meaningful conversations with. People who believe there is more to life than what shoes you wear or what color your hair is. I always hoped to have someone that I can talk about important issues with, like world hunger, homelessness, anything where I could make a difference in someone else’s life. That has always been one of my goals in life, and I personally think it is truly important to have large goals like these. I think it keeps people sane. It keeps people with an open mind, a mind that allows the brain to learn more, to grow more and to develop more.
I decided to go to this event the church in my area has on Thursday nights. It is called the verge, ask me why I honestly have no idea but it sounds cool so I mean I guess that’s okay. So it was Thursday and I went, I went with an aunt and an uncle of who are very religious but that never bothered me. I always felt that everyone has a right to their own opinion and that deciding when and where to change that opinion is a matter of yourself, a matter of your own judgment. So I went believing it would be a fun night, out of the house and BOOM. I don’t even know what had happened, where things changed. These were my first moments of religion.
It is better to stand with God and be Judged by people
than to stand with people and be judged by God.
A man named Brian and his wife named Dianalee Walrond (Cofounders of the non-profit organization RS1 Motivational Media) had come up and decided to speak at this event, little did I know why I needed to be there that night. You see, he kept mentioning things that were truly connected to my personal life. Things only people who knew me would know, he starting talking about someone in the crowd who knows they need to let go of a relationship and move on but keeps holding on to it, he mentioned my writing and how it will continue to grow but grow in ways that will better more than just myself, and he even mentioned this same person having the feeling of distance from God. As you are reading this you probably think I am crazy, believe me, I thought it was, I thought he had a tape of my life because how on earth could he have known that about me if he hadn’t ever met me before. Well, the answer… he was reciting from the Heavens, not earth. God had known I was going to be there and he knew this was my time, he knew by the power of one man, I would feel complete. He knew I would feel the urge; the urge to believe.
So here I am, writing about this crazy event because wow, this doesn’t truly happen but it did, It did for me. If you are not religious that is okay by all means, because everyone needs their own time to think, to understand all the differences out in the world and to be ready to accept God in their lives at their own time. But my experience was wonderful, it blew me away. Words cannot describe how different I feel and that is okay. It is okay to feel like that and it is okay for it to take time. Just remember to keep your head high but to keep an open mind. Remember to take the time when learning something new because who knows where it will bring you next. Remember to relax, to take things at your own pace and to truly understand the concept before jumping into something deep.
All in all, I am happy to be changed, I am now involved in a community inside of a community that shares love, passions, and desires all within the same place. I feel a spark inside of me just from being in a room and I will hopefully carry this spark for the rest of my life, hoping to one day pass my experiences onto someone who needs them as much as I did.
Jeremiah 29:13 – “You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.”
Personally, it was my time to seek help when I knew I couldn’t do these things on my own, I needed to turn to more power, I needed to come to terms with my realization and within this community, I have found that sense of help, that sense of happiness and that sense of relaxation. All because I went to a group setting that was more than just a group setting. So do not judge because who knows what the day can hold.