When I was 18, I thought that I would become a makeup artist. I remember deciding to enroll in a makeup diploma, followed by a fashion management diploma. This wasn’t what I initially envisioned myself doing. I thought that I would be working in the tech field or in aviation, whether that be flying airplanes or collecting data. I thought that by now, I would’ve programmed and developed a new invention.
But after trying a few courses, I realized that tech wasn’t the best fit for me. It was something that I struggled with. No matter how hard I tried or how long I practiced, it didn’t come naturally to me.
I found it quite shocking. I’ve always been known as a math and science person, someone who is good with numbers. I later realized that numbers, surprisingly, didn’t come naturally to me. In fact, I was more of a kinesthetic learner.
Throughout my time in makeup school, I realized that the industry wasn’t what I envisioned.
I’m sure you have seen many movies about the interpersonal struggles in makeup and fashion. On top of this, I realized it was difficult for me to secure a position.
Within the next five years, I decided to explore other fields, simply because I thought that the makeup industry wasn’t worth it.
I went into social work, and none of it was the best fit. Then I went into business, only to realize that I despise working desk jobs.
But then one day, after visiting a salon, I remembered how I wanted to try hairstyling.
I decided to research more about the industry, including the time and education required. After discussing with my internship coordinator, I then realized that no matter how long it takes, it is always worth the shot to explore.
Then, I confirmed that perhaps my gut instinct about myself was right from the beginning.
No matter how much I try to escape, I still return to creating. And no matter how much I try to fit myself into a mold, I still return to individuality, choosing to express who I am.
So perhaps from the beginning, I was right.
Perhaps my calling was in the arts or fashion. It was just that the medium is different.
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