We were both a mess.
I had my own burdens to carry and you had struggles you needed to get over. Everything about us was lost and empty. I had to stand on my own without any fears while you had to find yourself after feeling like a failure.
I never thought you would come in an unexpected way.
We met each other in breaks and patches. I was broken, and you did not know who you were. We met and that was the only thing that felt right.
I have seen your darkest sides.
Few understood your actions and some easily judged you. Seeing your darkest side while opening up yourself to me seems to be a blessing. You found someone who could understand your flaws and past mistakes. You realized you were not a mess at all.
You have witnessed how weak I was.
I built walls for fear of getting hurt again. You knew back then I couldn’t trust people easily. I was fragile and sensitive and you needed to sing for me most of the nights when nightmares bugged me until I can finally sleep. I had found someone who made me feel safe and comfortable. You made me realize I was not a mess at all.
I have been through the toughest of my life but you never leave.
You stayed even if I tried to push you away. You are holding my hand when I want to give up. You offered me strength that the heaviest burdens seemed to be so easy to carry. You lifted up my lost self and let me find a place where I can be comfortable and safe. You made me feel so big when I see myself as the smallest and worthless being ever. These things made all the difference, because you are there with me.
We may not have this time together now but I was so lucky to have met you.
I am hoping that you would find someone better than me that would make you feel alright all the time. Someone who would embrace your imperfections. Someone who would accompany you and wake you up whenever you have nightmares at 3 a.m. Someone who would never see your past mistakes as your flaws but would treat it as a part of you. I guess, being together does not mean being in a relationship at all. I have a good friend in you and that what makes this connection wonderful.
We have been through our darkest hours together and knowing there were patches of lights glowing in our broken souls which made us feel complete at some point in our lives. The day you came was not a coincidence nor an accident. Despite our emptiness and doubts, we discovered a reason to live and continue living, because of each other.
The day we came in each others’ lives was not about destiny or fate, but a blessing in disguise.
Originally published on Thought Catalog.
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