When I got my first childcare worker job over six years ago, I clearly remembered wanting to advance in the specific job. I wanted to perhaps become a supervisor but to do that, I had to study a specific post-secondary program.
Although I wanted to stay within the field, I did not like the current job at all. I would come home exhausted and burnt out, thinking the responsibilities were too much to handle. But after a turn of events, I decided that perhaps I should continue to eye on the supervisory position.
Four years later, I embarked on a journey to complete a social service worker diploma program. I was super stoked about beginning this program, as it was one of the programs that qualified me to apply for the supervisory position.
But once when I got the supervisory position and started the job, I realized that perhaps, the position was not worth the effort after all.
The responsibilities were more than I envisioned, and I was continuously stressed to meet deadlines and complete tasks. I sometimes would come home exhausted and not before long, I realized that the supervisory role was simply too much for me to handle.
When I started my studies in business, I only kept the role of a substitute supervisor for a season. Then I decided that I no longer needed the role for the next season.
I asked myself, “Why did I try to open a door already closed?”
Even when I first began the job, I did not like the role in itself. I felt exhausted from day one and no longer wanted to apply for the supervisory position. Therefore, the door for that position was already closed long before I considered reapplying.
But four years later, when I reapplied and accepted the role, I was opening the previously closed door.
At first, that was the best choice: I could prove my previous self wrong and obtain a better position. They all say that resiliency is the key to success. But it won’t be long before I realize that perhaps there was a reason why the door closed at first. And perhaps, it was not worth reopening that door again because it simply wasn’t meant to be.
Thinking about this, I look back at previous events when reopening closed doors may have been worth it. This ranges from my social service diploma program to the friendships I failed to keep. What happens if I reopen these doors again? Won’t life present itself with more opportunities?
But then, I realized that those doors may have closed similar to this job because they were simply not meant to be in my life. I may have needed to move on and discover other fields. Opening these doors may waste my time and effort, which could have been dedicated to something else.
So, therefore, I said goodbye to the social service diploma because it was not worth wasting my time on it. And I bid farewell to all the previous dreams that were simply not meant to be.
They all say it’s important to move on after all, which usually means leaving doors closed.
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Very motivational