I know things didn’t turn out exactly how we imagined they would. I mean, we were supposed to be having weekly Skype sessions while we were starting a new chapter in each of our lives at university. I wish I would have known moving away meant closing the rest of our book. I remember talking about being bridesmaids at each others weddings, even though we were both still single.
I really hope the new guy I see on your Instagram and Facebook treats you well. You look really happy in the photos. I’m not going to lie, it was difficult for me to find out something that I had always thought I would hear about over a 2 AM phone call with all the juicy information best friends share with one another on my news feed.
I really don’t know when we stopped being friends. I mean, I know I didn’t put in the best effort when it came to communication, I’ve never been good at that anyways. I guess I could have tried harder, called more often, checked in on you more. I’m really sorry that I wasn’t there if and when you needed me. A part of me thought that we didn’t need to talk every day for you to know that I would always be there for you, I guess that’s where I went wrong. Maybe you have a new best friend that helped you every step of the way.
I hear songs and want to message you to let you experience them, but I never do. I don’t know if you even think of me anymore. It’s amazing how someone who knew every detail of my personal life has no idea what’s going on now.
Someone called me by the nickname you had for me the other day and I thought of you. It’s the little reminders that you were such a huge part of my life that actually hurt me the most. What happened to us? I get that friends drift apart, but you were my best friend and I needed you. I had so many adventures and I couldn’t tell you about them.
Please don’t think that I am mad at you, I’m actually the opposite. I mean, you pulled your life together, found a guy that appears to make you really happy, and are challenging yourself everyday. I hope life is going well for you. Thank you for giving me those years of friendship. I truly wish you all the best in life and hope you’re really happy.
An Old Friend
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