Hey You, Please Just Text Me Already

Hey,

Oh, look at me saying “hey” this time. I wanted to reach out and talk to you. How are you doing? I’m hanging in there, you know, work is great. Things are going well with school, I’m enjoying life for the most part. Only, there’s one thing wrong here. 

I miss you like crazy. 

I didn’t realize that it was possible to miss someone this much. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt before. I didn’t realize that I would find myself thinking about you, and wanting to hear your voice, and laugh over a dumb joke with you.

I was in my car the other day and you came to my mind and I sat there and sighed and thought “Holy sh*t, I really miss them”. And it was a type of feeling that I can’t  begin to describe, it’s like a literal piece of myself is missing from my heart and I don’t know what to do about it. 

And I know you probably miss me, I know that life is crazy and things get in the way, but this separation is driving me nuts. 

And to a degree, I hope it drives you nuts as well, because then I don’t feel so crazy for missing you this much. 

I feel like we’re people who are always meant to be involved in each other’s lives, we were thrown in together at the perfect time, making the perfect impression of each other, and we took a step back from life and went our separate ways and it shattered my heart. 

But to a degree, I think we needed the separation so we could become our best selves. 

And I mean, your absence sent me in the direction of where I needed to go, and I appreciate that, but it still hurts like a bitch that I don’t get to see or talk to you nearly as much as I want to. 

I try reaching out and shooting a text, but I never get a reply, and it annoys the sh*t out of me. 

I can only shoot  a message saying “hi” so many times before I want to jump through the phone and strangle you, because you drive me nuts with the silence. 

It takes no effort to shoot back a hi, or send a smiley back, at least I would know I’m not an idiot for saying hi, especially when we don’t see each other often. 

I really think we have a shot together and making something work, but this silence makes me overthink things, and I don’t want to overthink.  

I understand that no matter where life takes us we’re always going to have our connection and we’re always going to pick right back up where we left off, and you’ll be there for me in a heartbeat when sh*t really hits the fan. 

But it would be nice to hear from you, and it would be nice to see the effort on your side every once in a while. 

I love you, and I know you love me, and we’re stuck with each other, but please reach out. The silence is driving me nuts, and I’m not sure how much longer I can go without hearing from you, before I really get mad, and it’s not going to be pretty when that happens. 

Come on, you idiot, pull yourself together.

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