Dear Beautiful Soul,
We have not met yet, but I know one day we will. It will take some time, but I know that you will be in my life and I will be in yours. I have always wanted children, but I have also always known that having my own is not something I am comfortable with. I have always been able to recognize that there are plenty of children in this country alone that don’t have a home and that deserve one. So if I can provide that for at least one child, I will be happy.
I want you to know that I strive for you every day. Someday we will be a family and I want it to be as wonderful as possible. I know that it won’t be easy, but I also know that is all going to be worth it. You are going to be worth it. I am excited for that time to come, even though I know it won’t be for a while.
Adoption is something I have been considering for a few years. The people close to me know that it is something I feel very strongly for. When I first started truly thinking about my future, I knew that children would be a part of it. I just didn’t know how.I have learned that sometimes we are meant for different futures. Not everyone takes the same path to get the same thing. Some people grow their family by giving birth, I will grow mine by adopting.
One important thing I have learned in life is that family does not mean blood. Just because you are related to someone by blood does not mean they have to be in your life. Just because someone is not related to you by blood does not mean they can’t be your family. Pure love brings people together in different ways, but no one way is better or more significant than any other. We will one day have a beautiful, blended family. For the time being, there are a few things I want you to know.
You are so loved. You will know this when we meet and you will know this for the rest of your life. We will face every obstacle, triumph, and milestone together with grace and patience. We will work together always and I will always remind you that no matter what I love you and always will. You will always be able to talk to me no matter what. I want you to have the patience and faith in knowing I will always be there for you.
You are safe. I don’t know what your story will be before you come into my life. I know that your life before may not be consistent. I know you may be scared. But I want you to know that I know what that feels like. I know what it is like to not have balance and stability. But I am going to do my best to provide that for you. I can’t promise that when you become my child your life will be perfect. But I can promise I will always keep you safe and give you a nurturing environment.
You are my child. It doesn’t matter that you don’t look like me. It doesn’t matter that I didn’t carry you inside me for nine months. It matters that I chose to be your mother and that we became a family. I promise that whoever I marry will see you as his child as well. I promise no matter what anyone says, you are my child. You are a part of the plan now, and I cannot wait to become your mom.
I don’t know when I will be able to bring you home. I don’t know who you are or where you are from. All I know is that you will be a part of my life and I can’t wait. I can’t wait to get to know you and see where life takes us. It won’t always be easy and perfect, but it will always be the best I can give. I want to give you the childhood I didn’t have and the one you deserve. Because you deserve love like all children do.
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