Why I Have Hope For Our Future Even If You Don’t

Is it terrible of me to think that you’ll change your mind about us? You’ll go on other dates and meet other people, but all the meanwhile, I’m the one you can’t get off your mind. It isn’t fair to me or to you, to hold on to this feeling, but I think it might happen regardless. You’ll be making connections, but they won’t be as strong as ours. At the end of the night, I’ll be the one you call to tell me how the date went and in one of those moments, you’ll realize that the conversation should be about us and not your date. It’s me, I’m the person you have been looking for the whole time. I know you’ve told me otherwise, but I think you’re wrong, even though that doesn’t happen very often.

I do so much for you and not because I have to, but because I want to. I never count favors with you because you’re my best friend; I would do just about anything for you, and hey you do so much for me too. You’re hungry, I’ll make you something. You’re tired, I’ll scratch your head as you lay in my lap. You need someone to talk to, I’m listening. You want to watch a movie, what are we watching? You want to explore, just tell me where we’re going. As long as you’re near me, I’m happy. I think it’s a two-way street because you watch the bachelor with me and I know you cringe at the fact that you know most of the girl’s names now.

It’s crazy to think that there was a time that we were just friends. I believed it too, how could I ever be with you? Now I question, how could I ever be without you? People used to ask us questions about our relationship and if we were together but we would just laugh it off. Now I know what they were talking about. Everyone saw it before we did, but then eventually we saw it too. Better late than never, right?

I still remember the time you were late to a date because you were hanging out with me, no complaints on my end! It’s just hard to think about you being with someone else because we won’t be the same and that’s what I’m not ready to give up yet. Who would be okay with their boyfriend going to another girl’s house at any time of the day? Knowing this girl is his best friend, I don’t think so! Maybe that’s my “crazy jealous girlfriend” thoughts coming out, although I don’t think I’m that jealous, but other girls might be.

I know where you think you stand, I just don’t believe you. I hope you know your words say one thing but your actions are completely different, and with that, I don’t know what to do. The way you hold me says otherwise. The way you look at me says otherwise. Are you scared of what could happen? Because I’m scared too, but I’m telling you, there is something about us that makes me know that we could work. But not only that we could work, but that we could be amazing together. You’re my best friend and I want the best for you. As of right now, I believe that the best thing for you is well… me! I could be wrong but I guess I’ll find out the answer sooner or later.

I have a feeling that you might change your mind about us, and I hope that I’m right.

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